Christmas Meltdown

Christmas Meltdown

Thursday, August 21, 2008

So much has changed....

It's been an emotional day for sure, as it marks the 1 year anniversary of my mother's passing. Last Thursday (1 year ago) was the last time I had seen her and I thought about it all day. Sometimes it's still so fresh in my mind.

Obviously being the emotional Cancer that I am, I've been thinking about how much is changed in the last year....was pregnant (now have a 9 month old my mom never met), was working full-time (now staying home all day), rode on the coattails of my parents at family get-togethers (now assuming a senior role during the visits and coordination). Although I'm trying to appreciate the fragile gift that life is more, I know I could be living a more fulfilled life. Maybe during the only 10 minutes a day when I'm not changing someone's diapers? I guess even that task is a gift (sorta).

Final advice for my readers today: please call your mom and tell her that you love her. I still tell mine that everyday.

3 comments:

Kami said...

Oh, what an emotional day for you - I'm thinking about you. But what a celebrated life you are leading with your two sweet babies and wonderful husband! Your mom would be so proud...

Julia Shinkle said...

Your Mom would be proud of you! Hang in there Nic! The first year is so hard! Talk about your mom to your kids and they will know her through you. That's what we do with my Dad and the kids talk about him like he is still alive. Rowdy really misses him and he was only 8 months old when he died. Life is too short that is for sure...and I think every day how thankful I am for my kids health. Changing a diaper is so easy breezy compared to having a child with a diability or in the hospital sick. My cousin is going through that and it is such a challange. Sorry to ramble. Hope you had fun with Robyn and Shelli.

WeeezrO said...

Hey friend - thinking about you and thought you'd like this memory I have of your mom that just makes me smile. The first time we met at Safeway for my dress fitting in the restroom (awesome!), she asked what kind of car I had so she could look for me. I had the Galant and told her it was sort of a greenish-bluey and she said, "Oh you girls...you ALL LOVE that green color for your cars!" Made me giggle at the time because I knew you had always wanted a car that color (no more RED!)and that your mom knew too. What makes me smile now is that I'm realizing you sound a lot like your mom, Nicole...her delivery, her laughing, her brassy broad-ness and being the life of the conversation. You know that's you, right? You know she's still here, right?

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