Still playing the waiting game????

For those of you following on the blog and especially those in my Bible Study group can attest, I've had the same prayer request for about 6 months: that radiation would not be necessary for me.  I have an extensive list of reasons why and have had most of my medical team agree that I have a "really good chance" of avoiding it.  That being said....

One of my 500 appointments this month was to my breast surgeon last week who hugged me with glee while handing me my pathology report.  It seems that chemo had shrunk(en?) my tumor by about 50%, but it had also killed all the cancerous cells within the tumor.  In other words, as the tumor was being removed, it was now benign.  Hallelujah!  Finally cancer free!!!!  I don't need radiation, right?  Right!?  She STILL wouldn't confirm.

Getting a little feisty, I asked who exactly would be making this call??  I was told the Radiation Oncologist.  Um, I don't have a Radiation Oncologist.  No worries, she'll set up an appointment.  Well, no thank you!!!  I ask you people out there with common sense: do you really believe a Radiation Oncologist is going to say I won't need radiation?  Or do you assume, like me, that because it's their job they'll say it's necessary 'just as a precaution.'  Exactly.

My plan....meet with the oncologist ONLY if they initiate the appointment.  I have no desire to talk to anyone about going through this extra, lengthy step that leaves me open to developing lung cancer down the road.  My surgeon told me not only is there the "really good chance" of not going through radiation, but she's OK with me not going through it.  I have been formulating a good case if/when this appointment occurs.  I am well aware that this is ultimately MY decision, but I'll tell you right now: that Radiation Oncologist better have an airtight and ultra-convincing case, because as it stands right now...I'm not having radiation!